Monday Mantra: I’m Actually Not Stupid

I’m actually not stupid. Or wrong. Or different from anyone else. But you know what? It’s taken me about 32 years to realize that.

Growing up I always felt like I did things a little different. I remember in 4th grade my teacher gave my class the task of writing a short story about Halloween. Everyone wrote their stories on Monday and presented them that Thursday—Halloween.

I liked the assignment and thought about it for a long time, so long in fact, that I presented my story two weeks after everyone else had—long after Halloween was over. Lucky for me, that teacher understood that my process was different from everyone else’s but not wrong. Unlucky for me, that wasn’t always the case.

I grew up feeling like I didn’t think like other people, that my answers were usually wrong, and that my perspective was to be kept to myself because it would likely be different from those in the room. I took these feelings into adulthood, into every job I ever had, into my relationships.

And I hate to say it, but one day this year, my 32nd year of life, I woke up and realized that way of thinking was a crock of shit. That everyone in the boardroom is taking a stab at answering questions the best they can, just like me. That I’m not wrong for thinking as I do, for following the processes as I do, that in fact—I’m not actually stupid.

If you’ve ever felt like you were less than, wrong, or just not as smart or good as the people who surround you (which, let’s be honest, everyone feels like at one time or another,)—think about what it might feel like if you were to simply choose the opposite thought. You have the power to decide whether your smart or wrong or not as good—and you have the power to shift that perspective and honor what it is that wants to come out of out you, however it wants to come out. Honor the way that you think, as a service to yourself and a service to the world.

I choose to respect my thoughts,

my thought process,

and my way of thinking.

Anytime I feel less than,

I change my perspective because,

I actually am not stupid.

Isn’t that great?! 

Have happy & healthy week!

Love,

Holly