When I’m feeling stressed or out of control my guard goes up and I plan for battle.
Suddenly everyone is out to challenge my sense of security. I question my relationships, my work, and hyper-examine the actions of everyone around me because I’m convinced that they—in some way or another—are out to get me.
Paranoid? Dramatic? Totally. That’s what giving into the ego does to us.
I was talking with a friend last week about failure. When we dug into it, one of the scariest parts about failure is how its perceived by others. The fall we can handle, people seeing the fall—that’s the hard part.
Even for those of us who are service-driven and mindful, as normal human beings it’s natural for us to asses a situation in terms of what we can get out of it. It’s a natural survival technique really, “is this worth expending my energy on?” That is a totally valid question and it’s important that we ask ourselves just that. Yet, there are so many other times—especially in our modern world where basic survival is not our top priority—when the question of “what can I get out of this” is overemphasized.
Happy Friday, all! This weekend marks the first that my husband is officially home for the fall/winter season. We’re celebrating with an overnight truck-camp in the Sawtooths and planning for a longer trip next week.